Never in my entire Chrstian life have I prayed as often or as desperately as I have this past week. There is someone I love beyond measure possibly facing a life challenge that I would spare her at any cost.
I’m sure you’ve been there, when you wake up over and over during the night, a name is on your lips and your mind goes instantly to prayer. When it’s all you can do, you do it with a fervor you’ve never known before.
I read a fellow blogger’s post this morning and it spoke to me so deeply I have to share it. Here’s the link: http://pausingtopraise.wordpress.com/author/sheilacampbell
From her post, I quote these words:
I read the prayer of Moses in Deuteronomy 9: 25, “Thus I prostrated myself before the LORD; forty days and forty nights I kept prostrating myself, because the LORD had said He would destroy you. Therefore I prayed to the LORD,…” And I read the prayer of Daniel, “Then I set my face toward the Lord God to make request by prayer and supplications, with fasting, sackcloth, and ashes.” [Daniel 9:3] Both of these men were interceding on behalf of their nation that had rebelled and turned away from God. They were earnestly pleading for God’s mercy in the lives of others.
I am reminded that in the great scheme of things my faith is shallow. I think I have come so far in trust and belief, and I have. But I have many miles to go before I can really count this a successful journey.
My hope and my light is in the fact that while I am changing every day, God is not. His promise to hear my prayers and answer each one doesn’t contain the codicil that I must first attain a level of fervency or sacrifice. If you don’t know what a codicil is – it’s wording that amends but does not replace a previous statement. God’s original promise stands as given.
When Moses prostrated himself and when Daniel smeared his face with ashes, it got God’s attention, touched his heart, drew his compassion.
When I cry out from my comfortable bed with my head on a soft pillow or sit at my desk, mascara and blush carefully applied and tailored outfit perfectly color coordinated, I get the same response Moses and Daniel did. Thank God for that!
I want my prayer life to go deeper and I want my walk to be more committed. I want the blinding light of Christ to be all that people see when they look at me. I know I’m not close to where I want to be . I have much work to do for sure.
But in the meantime, I am so humbly grateful for a God who takes me where I am, listens to my faltering voice, collects my tears in His bottle and loves my every effort no matter how small.
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-14
This is beautiful and I am touched. I too am so grateful for a God who takes me where I am and loves my every effort no matter how small.
AMEN! God Bless
Cheryl, You described exactly what I’ve felt and been trying to improve in my own prayer life for some time. And yes, thank God that He listens to our puny, pitiful efforts. I have come to the realization that we are missing out on seeing God’s hand move in mighty ways and that He’s waiting for His body to get serious about prayer. Then He will “hear from heaven” and we will be in continuous awe of our Great God. I’m not there yet, but I’m determined to take this thing called prayer to a new level. I’ve got a book “Don’t Just Stand There, Pray Something” that I think every believer should read. I bought it at the church Yard sale. It had been Ruth Stone’s. I’ve read portions of it over and over and bought some through Amazon and given them away. Every time a read a tidbit from it someone wants to get it. So I end this praying for your voice. I pray in the name of Jesus and upon His promise that when we pray, we believe that it has been granted and that we have received. (Mark 11:24)